So Sez Kez 138 - Human 'Nature'

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Comment by Kerry-Ann Howitt on September 26, 2009 at 6:15pm

When this stuff happens to me in physicality I usually start to sing "Welcome to my world, won't you come on in...". Hey! I guess I've just done it in cyberworld too! Wicked!

The way I deal with it is to just take it a step at a time. I get the major head thing too. I've always said I had multiple personalities, because I can converse with myself on a subject from at least 3 different standpoints at times.

You're being given knowledge. But most importantly you're thankful for the knowledge you're being given. The energy that we are all a part of (which I call the All) just loves to be heard. It's on your side after all. So it's giving you as much as it feels you can take. Trust me, if you ask it to stop it will. But if there is something it wants you to see, that's available at that time, it'll try its bestest. You know when you keep seeing the same thing? Let's say in the clouds. We are taught that to see something in the clouds is wishful thinking, but really it's the invisible inner voice (the All, your past loved ones, God, whatever feels most comfortable for you) telling you to look up right then.

I think that, as you have a disability like myself, there's a part of you that you're missing, that's being filled in. Like how blind people compensate with increased hearing or touch. That kinda thing. Our minds are so pre-occupied by design, but if you're forcibly pulled away from everything you know, how do you know that you know anything anymore? Bloody hell gal, I'm hurting my own head now!

I decided long ago (Houston, we have a problem) that I would let in as much knowledge as I could take. I've let the twiglets take me where they may ;-) and when I've had the random thoughts, I've naturally just followed the urge to be pulled. Every now and again though I have to just put the brakes on. Stop and digest what's coming in.

What I did though was pretty full on, on purpose. I just opened the floodgates. I've printed off things that, at the time, I thought were sooo boring it was unfunny, but now they're starting to come in useful.

I reckon the key is to have some hard copy of the thing that is going round in your head, because then it's let go of. One day, when it's needed, you'll have it there. But if you try and process it all at once you'll go cuckoo. One step at a time, though I know from experience that this is difficult to follow when you're excited by where you're being led.

Don't be scared Angel, never be scared. It's all alien right now (chortle), but soon it will all be clear. I reckon that in a few months you'll have a handle on things. At the beginning I was chuffin' petrified. I hadn't even got a clue why I was doing it. I bloody well do now though, and that is the best consolation that I can offer you. The further along you go, the more magical your life will become.

Have faith baby, what's happening to you is meant to be happening, and it's for your benefit. Say thank you loads, but always know that you're being helped by something that has faith in you too... and if you need me for anything at all ... ever! I'm here.

Other than that, just enjoy the ride Princess. It only ever gets better!

I love you soooo much
xXx

Comment by hippymummy on September 26, 2009 at 11:24am

Since we chatted the other day my head has been whizzing around and round. I keep finding myself going over things, trying to get it all in order but there's just SO much i'm having trouble organising my brain - which isn't organised at the best of times so believe me when i say its reached another level alltogether! How do you manage? can you kind of turn it off sometimes? Can you turn it off? It feels like i have loads of different bits floating around my noggin that arent totally connected yet, but i know they are desperately trying to find the order to make the full picture. How long did it take you to get to where you are now? i guess what i'm trying to say is .......... HELP!!! Im scared that my brain's going to fall out of my ear! What sites on the 'net did you visit to get more information about all this stuff? I don't want to be mithering you every five mins so if you just give me a pointer or two maybe i can get myself back into some kind of order, "kind of" being the operative word in my case, lol! Thanks sweetie xXx